Living with a bi-sexual husband
I am a mother of 4 boys and a stay at home mom as well, who has recently found out by accident that after 18 years of marriage that my husband is bi-sexual.
I am in such pain and turmoil and really don't know how to work with this information. Firstly, I still love him dearly, but at the same time I am afraid that I will be dumped for one of the other men!
He is not open or honest about his bi-sexuality and does not like to talk about it.
He has been lying to me and himself on this issue, and I have had to deal with plenty of emotional abuse over the years, probably due to issues that he was trying to deal with.
My self esteem has taken a huge "knock", as I realize that I will never always be "enough" or to satisfy my husband completely. The fear of him leaving us very unsettling and has affected my security level greatly.
I am not sure if he loves me or is in "love " with me.
At the same time I need to honor my feelings and need to be loved unconditionaly as I deserve it.
I want to take my feelings and needs into consideration first, but I have 4 children who love their father, plus we are all very dependant on my husband financially.
This is the first time that when faced with a problem that I don't know how to deal with.
I feel sometimes that I make his newly discovered lifestyle easy for him as I choose to ignore it, by being very dependable with the children, cooking, cleaning and by keeping the "home fires" burning.
any advise from anyone in the same "boat" would be greatly appreciated.