Re: Living In A Sexless Marriage
Dear Dakereb..
You sound discouraged and resigned. I think I am at that point of arrival where reality says.."this is it, it is all there will ever be."
How do I feel about that? There is no hope for anything better, with him or anyone else at this stage .
OK..it is all it can be. We live together. He sleeps in the other room since the illness and that frees me from uncomfortable emotions as anger to sleep beside him. I must get into renewed zest to work on my own health and appearance..do things I enjoy to do. He is going through chemo with months to go. Though he is now cancer free there are still months ahead in treatments. The financial loss has been staggering with income loss and MED bills ahead. Lucky we carried no large obligations or it would be worse. We hope he can return to work perhaps October.
I leave in a few days vacation/rest for 5 days to a place in upper NY. A charming victorian town and famous for the landmarks/activities there in the summer season, two months. He encourages the getting away and says I need a break from him. How true. I love that kind of place and thought to go for some years. There are many activities scheduled and 20,000 descend on that little town each season. I made reservations and preset tickets to events. The last day I will drive about 50 miles to
Niagara Falls and ride the tour boat to the edge of the falls. We went there on the honeymoon..29 years ago.
Too bad no one to go along but I know a group from here who will be there a day after and we plan to connect. I plan to stay one extra day after but can go do some of the sights together.
I read about this place and one lady with this church trip group has been there each year for 30 years. It is just the place I need for some fresh air. Just hope he will take good care of the animals especially my german shepherd, Canto, who I will miss terribly.
Hello, Bear, hope you get a chance to get away for a few days.
Last edited by 1aokgal; 2nd August 2010 at 02:48 AM.
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