Yes, I see how your patience would be wearing out just as you need more of it!
Thanks for writing back, Marky. It is hopeful that she's texting you with what, I guess, are quite intimate messages - for her. I'm assuming you *have* said what you told us, that you daren't make the first move for fear of scaring her off?
It's certainly clear that she appreciates the problem, and would very much like to fix it ...
It also looks as though she's frightened of something: something that's still so powerful in her unconscious, it is capable of preventing her from enjoying a happy family life. If she can take away that "something's" power, she'll be better able to relax & will feel more confident.
Such a thing doesn't necessarily imply a major trauma, though that's quite possible given what you said about her past. Very controlling parents are a common cause of Generalised Anxiety Disorder, especially in women. The constant feeling of being "not good enough" leads to permanent stress - and, eventually, physical symptoms provoked by hormone & neurotransmitter imbalances.
Here are a couple of links, picked more or less at random:
http://www.merck.com/mmpe/sec18/ch251/ch251b.html
http://www.womentowomen.com/depressi...d/anxiety.aspx
http://psychology.suite101.com/artic...ar_of_intimacy
Clearly, feeling anxious and "not good enough" stops you enjoying your own body, never mind letting somebody else enjoy it!
Such things aren't usually too difficult to fix or, at least, to manage. The problem lies in making the decision to get counselling, when the "something" will fight tooth & nail to keep you from dealing with it! (I used to get a violent stomach upset before my appointments
)
Since you have made the effort to discuss with your wife the serious threat to your marriage - and she's responded positively - this should be the ideal time to make a Relate appointment.
Or - if your wife's up to it - just make a resolution to have sex every day. Whether you feel like it or not! This time-honoured fix for overstressed, sexless couples has now been clinically trialled and found to work
Of course, if there IS a deep-seated something, the 'daily dose' method won't be possible. You'll have to figure that one out between you ...
A couple of alternative approaches to beating the "something" would be for her to try EFT - a very fast-acting technique to overcome deep-seated fears (find a qualified therapist with the relevant training) or, if you're religious, prayer. Raymond had some great stories about prayer's power to release sexual inhibitions.
I really hope this works out well for you, Marky
As you're both in this for the success of your marriage, the signs are good (might not feel like it: but they are!)
Very best wishes,
AG