Re: I really messed up...need help
Hi Chosen and Raymond, its been awhile since I've posted and my life has truly gotten worse. A few weeks ago I lost my job for the most ridiculous reason ever...I'm pretty sure I hold the distinction for the only person in the world to be fired over copier paper. I have zero income, the bills are piling up and my long lost wife has stopped paying her share of the bills for several months. I haven't spoken to her and I don't know if our child has been born or not. I've seen a counselor and that just became a money pit for her...my parents tell me to find medication to take and just take it. I haven't spoken to God in months because it's clear now that I'm not in his favor and getting married was the worst decision I ever made...I was never supposed to get married and that's why my life has fallen completely apart. I'm seriously considering suicide but I haven't found the courage yet...I wish I can just die right now...although my parents would be hurt and disappointed, eventually they will get over it ad life will go on...I serve no purpose, I have no future and life is not enjoyable. Sorry for being whiny and sorry for being weak...I'm not equipped to handle life and I'm ready for the end........
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