4 years ago...
4 years ago I joined this site full of depression and anxt. My live-in partner of the time was causing me so much anguish I came close to taking my own life, twice.
Reading through the threads of late I can totally empathise with what some of you are going through.The online porn activity,the hidden text messages, the lies, the affairs. It makes me sad to see so many people going through what I did.
I did the " checking up ", the wanting so much to believe in him , falling for his lies.. because it was easier than losing him..feeling sick to the pit of my stomach everytime he left the house. We couldn't talk things through, he wouldn't allow it. Looking back it was all about him.
I finally saw the light and ended the relationship when I discovered he was seeing a young girl of 18...At the time it broke my heart.
This was almost 2 years ago now.... I'm glad to say my mental health is fully restored and my emotional self is back on an even keel. I'm in a relationship with someone who isn't local to me and have been for some months... It suits me not to live with anyone right now and to have some space when I need it, it's also helped me to rebuild my trust in men.To stay in the relationship when he's so far away I have had to learn to trust him. We began as friends and have never looked back.
To all of you who are newly alone this Christmas I say, have hope, time does heal, life does go on and more than that, can bring happiness and peace of mind . To those who are going through the doubts and uncertainties whilst trying to mend your relationships I say, trust your instincts, look to your own hearts and protect them.
To all of you I wish a Happy Christmas and a peaceful and happy new year.
Helen x
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