Re: I can't believe this is happening!
So, tonight I was the bigger person. My kids have been with my ex for the last four days after me calling him and asking him to take them (he hadn't had them since April). I had had enough and just needed a break. Anyway, he dropped them off tonight and we spoke about upcoming plans for the kids for the summer. Then this evening I got the phone messages left the last day and one was from him apologizing for not taking the kids sooner. i had a "soft" spot then and I called him to thank him for taking them when I so desperately needed a break. Then after I hung up, I thought to myself, "I hope he's happy", so I called him back immediately while the thought was fresh and told him that...that I hoped, despite the money situation, he was happy in his life and that's what I wanted for him. He automatically threw the money situation in my face, how he was 43 years old and couldn't afford an apartment and had to live in a boading house, yadda, yadda, yadda and completely went to the financial problems. I just said "Sorry, I'll go" and hung up, and completely broke down. Was I naive in wishing him happiness? Despite everything that's happened, that's what I want for him....and I took advantage of feeling that tonight and told him. And he totally slammed me. I should have known better and should have kept that to myself. What was I thinking??? He called me back a short time later and told me he hoped the same thing for me, that he hoped I was happy and that he wanted all the tense moments to be done and that we could keep the lines of communication open for the kids, but it felt like he was pissed off, like it wasn't sincere...
I hate this...
Last edited by RayCub; 12th July 2010 at 03:27 AM.
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