[lostwithouthim]

hi this is c, and i will be brief, i am a newlywed and a new stepmom, my new husband needs to come to Christ. i felt that he was saved and now i do not. he is extremely controlling of me and my daughter. he wants to save money and it seems that if we have enough money in the bank then he acts better. but whenever i need something, car maintenance or lunch money for my daughter then he goes off. i have learned to control my tongue 99% of the time but he has a double standard and i feel like a doormat. if i make suggestions to him because if he disagrees he goes off/he swears at me saying f--- you!, who the f--- are you!. he lets others hear him. he has let my bills go to pay his bills, he let my christmas present go to keep money in the bank/ when he goes off it is like its kills a little piece of my love for him each time...when i cry he makes fun of me..... i pray every day and i am waiting for a breakthrough....the strength to get through this...i need help and prayers and counsel