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Ah Hunny. What an awful time you've had....
Thanks for giving us an account of how you got to where you are . From what you've said it sounds as though you've always put your true feelings aside for other people .
I still think that staying in your marriage is something you need to give some deep thought to , your H is a drinker and having brought up by an alcoholic and losing a partner to suicide because of alcohol I know how difficult living with someone who drinks is . He has more than likely cheated on you. Any loyalty you owe him as a wife has been sorely tested.
Perhaps you think deep down that staying with your H will somehow make up for the fact that you love - or loved - somebody else but two wrongs don't make a right and I can't see how you can get past that , keep the marriage together and be happy all at the same time.
I really wish you the best of luck in working through your feelings and finding some happiness . I for one think you deserve that .
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