[Rainbow]

Thanks Raymond and Chosen for the advice. Its really appreciated right now.
I cannot talk with my son or daughter about this as they now say they don't want to take sides.
My husband is a company Director and runs his own business which takes him away for days on end, hence staying in hotels.

That is where he met THIS TART as i call her and they kept on seeing her for a year. I cannot get over the deceit, lies, betrayal etc which was kept up in all that time especially with me being so poorly he said he would NEVER EVER have an affair.

He also did so much with her sexually that we have never done, even when i was well. Sorry if TMI!!.

When i took him back my sex life came back big time and we both realized how much we loved on another but now i cannot stand him near me!!

I will never divorce him as i cannot imagine a life without him.
It just this sick feeling constantly in the pit of my stomach eating away at me all the time.

I just wish i could wipe the past year out but i now thats not possible.
I agree its like a bereavement but worse than that.

I think i need to do some serious thinking to see what i do want in life.
Finally i do trust him and know he would never cheat on me again.