[msjlhunter]

Thank you Chosen. I was actually in touch with a local organisation a few months ago when things where once again bad. I do still have their contact details so I will contact them tomorrow.

I am fine when I am not at home with him or in his company. When things are 'normal' we are just like flat mates.. The only thing we share is a bed (very little happens there).

I have no idea why I have left it this long.

Last Thursday he told me I ruined his life, told me he hated me and called me a fat c**t. (He knows I hate this word), despite the fact I have lost nearly 3 stone since March.. Those words cut into me like a knife and the fact that he didn't even remember anything the next day hurt so much. (He was very intoxicated)