[hurt and confused]

She will not do it in front of me. Like i stated, i am not really sure that this is what she really wants. I think she just feels like she should try it. Who knows, she might just come home today and say that she could not let him go. I do not believe that she really feels in her heart right now that she wants things to work with us. I think she is just really afraid of facing the reality of it being over. She has had the best of both worlds for the last 8 months and it is crunch time now. It shouldn't be too long before i finally have a direction to move in. I really want to believe that she will give it an honest try, but i will have to see it to believe it. Especially after some of her comments last night. It is very apparent that she is not ready to give him up yet. I just hope that maybe God will work a miracle here and tweak some wires in her head to make her really see what she is potentially losing.