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Totally natural feelings for you to have. I would be surprised if you really regreted your marriage. I don't regret mine. And whilst I shoulder the blame for my neglect I know I'm not all to blame. Our spouses have control over the situation, we cannot understand why they do as they do. We have a choice puglove , fight or flee, in going to fight. I have learned that getting on with my own life gets more interest, good and bad, than pursuing her relentlessly. You seem to be falling back into despair as I've done. But im going to get back up , hope you can to.