Purple lady

Completely falling to buts now, he still doesnt know that i know he is having a texting/phone relationship with my friend, it hasnt moved past that stage yet but they seem to want it to, i appear to be living in a constant state of fear and anxiety, i cant not be without him, its where i belong and where i want to be, i just want the whole thing to go away and for him to realise that 23 years of love and commitment cannot be taken away by a 4 week phone relationship.