Rebirth

[arcos]

Sometimes one has to let everything go to be able to start a fresh...

I am finding that after 20 months of separation that I am having to make some pretty horrible decisions in my life in an attempt to have a 'rebirth'.

This morning my horse went to a new home after being with me for 10 years.

A very difficult and sad decision. We have had some pretty wild times in the 10 years being together and he has been a comfort and a true friend in darkest times.

He has gone to a very good home and I know that he will be loved and cared for, maybe even more than I loved and cared for him. I can visit him whenever I want and he is only about 30 minutes away but I wont, not for some time at least.

A sad day but necessary.

I am stripped of virtually everything now and have nothing.

A new chapter? Maybe.

[Helen_uk]

Hitting rock bottom is awful arcos, I know that feeling well . I had to rehome my dog after my partner and I split . I was devastated but knew I couldn't cope with him , or afford to feed him or pay his very expensive vet bills, alone .

I think you've been very strong through all of this and made hard decisions because you had no choice.

When you have nothing there is only one way to go and so you start over and with a bit of luck and a shed load of determination you can end up with something better .

How are the children doing now ?

[Kimberley1967]

I lost my house and I had to rehome my two westies and it was very depressing dark time.

It does get better with time and I had to think of my dogs I worked away and they sat home all day and when I was home I was too tired to walk them. They went to a retired couple with a big garden and have more time and walkies it was a hard decision but ultimately it was in their interests not mine the same with your horse.

[arcos]

Hi Helen

Thanks for the kind words.

It has been a rough ride over the past 2 years and there is still some way to go.

The custody was finally resolved back in November when it was 'agreed' that 50/50 was best for the boys. For me it was a result after having no access at all and then, through court getting 2 weekends a month. 50/50 was about the best I could have hoped for.

Life is still tough, financially. Having no home, trying to rebuild my business and now with virtually nothing left of the 'before' life it has to be the only way is up.

I forgot to mention... The criminal case that my ex put against me has taken a turn. I went to review the paperwork in court last week because of the length of time that this has taken. Only to find out that she has now been made a suspect in a crime against me WITHOUT my knowledge. The police have deemed that following witness statements it is SHE who has a charge to answer and not me! Retribution?

I hope that things are good with you and settled?

Take care

[Helen_uk]

They do say what goes around comes around arcos.... seems she might have incriminated herself in some way .

I'm glad you're getting to see more of the boys, I still think they'd have been better off with you full time, but the courts always seem to see mum as the better full time parent , which as your case shows isn't always the case. At least they have you in their lives to provide some much needed stability.

I'm doing ok thanks , struggling forward !

I think what you've shown so far is a good indication that things will come right for you in the end , by sheer will power and hard work .

[john45]

some times people need a rebirth in life to make life so much better