zfis
23rd August 2010, 03:43 AM
Let me first start by stating that I have been married for 6 years now. I was married 4 years after I my first wife left me which left me devastated. I wanted to remarry and I prayed about it often, I had certain criteria I asked for and then all of a sudden I met my current wife who met the criteria and I felt like God was leading me to marry her, which I did.
It wasn't long after we were married that I felt that I had made a huge mistake, I was mad at God for a while until I came to the realization that being mad at God was counter productive.
We did have sex prior to marriage and it was good (even though I know it is wrong), after we were married it stopped and her personality completely changed for the worse. Here it is with 6 years that have gone by and I feel I have been sentenced to a lifetime of bad sex to a woman I am not attracted to anymore or want to be in the same room with.
I have been longing for an intimate relationship for a long time. Last week I was out of town and met another woman and one thing led to another and I ended up spending the next 3 nights with her. It was amazing and wrong all at the same time, I feel terrible about it now and have asked God to forgive me but it did take me a while to feel bad about it.
Now I am back home, stuck in this marriage. I have tried to speak with my wife about these things in the past and nothing ever comes of it. I am at a crossroads, I have experienced what I have been wanting for so long and now hate the fact that I am not going to experience it again if I stay with this woman and remain true.
Even if the intimacy improved in this marriage how do I get over the fact that I am not attracted to my wife anymore, nor do I even enjoy having conversations with her because I am always wrong about something.
What can I do, I am completely confused.
It wasn't long after we were married that I felt that I had made a huge mistake, I was mad at God for a while until I came to the realization that being mad at God was counter productive.
We did have sex prior to marriage and it was good (even though I know it is wrong), after we were married it stopped and her personality completely changed for the worse. Here it is with 6 years that have gone by and I feel I have been sentenced to a lifetime of bad sex to a woman I am not attracted to anymore or want to be in the same room with.
I have been longing for an intimate relationship for a long time. Last week I was out of town and met another woman and one thing led to another and I ended up spending the next 3 nights with her. It was amazing and wrong all at the same time, I feel terrible about it now and have asked God to forgive me but it did take me a while to feel bad about it.
Now I am back home, stuck in this marriage. I have tried to speak with my wife about these things in the past and nothing ever comes of it. I am at a crossroads, I have experienced what I have been wanting for so long and now hate the fact that I am not going to experience it again if I stay with this woman and remain true.
Even if the intimacy improved in this marriage how do I get over the fact that I am not attracted to my wife anymore, nor do I even enjoy having conversations with her because I am always wrong about something.
What can I do, I am completely confused.