kid
17th November 2000, 01:56 AM
I;m married, but very unhappy. I've been married for 12 years now, but it feels like it's been 25. I keep giving myself both physically and mentally to my husband, to get nothing in return. I do everything for him, and feel guilty when I don't have the time to. I feel used in the bedroom. He doesn't like to have the lights on, I even lost weight to make myself look better to him. It doesn't seem to matter, he just wants to hurry up and get it over with, he wants to do it all the time, but I never recieve any satisfaction out of it.
I cry myself to sleep at night, I know there is no one else, but I can't take working full time, doing the house work, cooking the meals, cleaning, taking care of the boys. my house is a desaster most days, I don't have the energy anymore to get the house the way I want it. I have tried talking to him about the way he is treating me, but he doesn't see a problem and that I have PMS or something for me to think that. For one, I'm one of the lucky ones that don't get PMS, and it makes me feel really small that he can actually think that. The problem is, for along time now we have been drifting apart, and I noticed about a year ago that he doesn't wear his new wedding ring, he says it is too nice to wear at work. So I stopped wearing mine. I had met an old friend about 6 months ago, we had seen eachother at a wedding dance. We had talked and danced together, I thought the sky was going to light on fire. I feel so much for this guy, and want to be with him, but how do I tell a poerson that doesn't think anything is wrong, that it's over.
I cry myself to sleep at night, I know there is no one else, but I can't take working full time, doing the house work, cooking the meals, cleaning, taking care of the boys. my house is a desaster most days, I don't have the energy anymore to get the house the way I want it. I have tried talking to him about the way he is treating me, but he doesn't see a problem and that I have PMS or something for me to think that. For one, I'm one of the lucky ones that don't get PMS, and it makes me feel really small that he can actually think that. The problem is, for along time now we have been drifting apart, and I noticed about a year ago that he doesn't wear his new wedding ring, he says it is too nice to wear at work. So I stopped wearing mine. I had met an old friend about 6 months ago, we had seen eachother at a wedding dance. We had talked and danced together, I thought the sky was going to light on fire. I feel so much for this guy, and want to be with him, but how do I tell a poerson that doesn't think anything is wrong, that it's over.