marissabel
28th September 2007, 03:23 AM
I have been married for near 17 years, we marry in our thirties,now we are near our fities,we have three kids,16,14 and 10 years, my husband has another kid of 9 years product of an office affair that last as long as 10 years with a divorced woman, he bring her to my home and she become my friend and was chosen to be the godmother of my trhird kid, i felt that they where too close but i never could imagine such thing, he ask me to divorce and marry this women in 2003, I was in shock but what can i do, so i told him ok. For his surprise the women left him and he became desperate and very depressed, so much that i thought he was going to comitted suicide, he didn t leave our home and stay because he wanted, and told me to be patient that times heal.
The point now is that he feels old ,that has not accomplished his financial goals, he wants a BMW but with four kids ....and so on ... since early this year he began again telling me that i am too good, and he is too bad that he loves me in tender way, that he still is in love with the other women(of course he has not tell me in that clear form), he visit his son regularly and i think he is trying to manipulate her with the child.He lied to me and bought a department for her and her family. We live in a rent house and now he is in a very expensive MBA , he went to New York in july to be alone and think, when he returned we stopped having sex on his requirement because he says is correct because he thinks in the lady, he denies having affairs, i know he have a very powerful sex drive and i am convinced that i like him very much. He has not ask to leave but i have told him that he is free to leave,he still sleeps in tha same bed, he usually arrived home 1 or 2 am because of work and in the morning he takes the kids to school,and again and again i havve been thinking to runnaway and
and leave him. Istead of telling him to go away.
When we met we where very spiritually connected we went to mass every day, we continue going only on sundays because i say so...
Is so hard to realize he doesnt love me...i am taking on psychiatrist advice antidepresives,he told me to be patient ,the kids are first but i scream them and treat them not so well i am very distant from my kids.
I think praying is my relief.
The point now is that he feels old ,that has not accomplished his financial goals, he wants a BMW but with four kids ....and so on ... since early this year he began again telling me that i am too good, and he is too bad that he loves me in tender way, that he still is in love with the other women(of course he has not tell me in that clear form), he visit his son regularly and i think he is trying to manipulate her with the child.He lied to me and bought a department for her and her family. We live in a rent house and now he is in a very expensive MBA , he went to New York in july to be alone and think, when he returned we stopped having sex on his requirement because he says is correct because he thinks in the lady, he denies having affairs, i know he have a very powerful sex drive and i am convinced that i like him very much. He has not ask to leave but i have told him that he is free to leave,he still sleeps in tha same bed, he usually arrived home 1 or 2 am because of work and in the morning he takes the kids to school,and again and again i havve been thinking to runnaway and
and leave him. Istead of telling him to go away.
When we met we where very spiritually connected we went to mass every day, we continue going only on sundays because i say so...
Is so hard to realize he doesnt love me...i am taking on psychiatrist advice antidepresives,he told me to be patient ,the kids are first but i scream them and treat them not so well i am very distant from my kids.
I think praying is my relief.