13 days and counting

[Coffeebean]

well guys its nearly over 13 days before the little one is due to see the world. I am so anxious and as everyone keeps telling me not excited at all at the prospect. But can you be surprised? According to my H he is just waiting for the baby to be born before he leaves. Its been so weird these last 5 months he's been so attentive giving me kisses and cuddles. Taking pictures of how i've grown. Feeling my stomach and talking to the baby and all I can think is what is going to happen once the baby is born. He won't be interested in me anymore because the baby won't be part of me. I'm really frightened about going into labour and H is so excited and so happy. He will be off work from tomorrow for a full month and i think either he or I will go crazy. I never ask him about the ow or whether he loves me or not - I'll admit it i'm a coward and really don't want to know the answer.

I had my father on the phone the other day telling me how I was obviously not excited about being a mother, and my mother on the phone today saying the same thing but really having a baby was h's idea he was the one who wanted to be a father before he decided he wasn't sure how he felt about our marriage and this blasted woman started telling him how much she loved him.

All prayers would be gratefully appreciated both for myself, my h and of course for the little bundle of job about to join the world. It goes without saying that whatever the future holds and whether or not I wanted to be a mother she will be greatly loved, protected and looked after - she is after all my daughter - gulp!!!!

To be fair to h he has never made any reference to going and all his plans and discussions with me have been long term and all into the future. 13 days is a very short space of time though!!!!!!

I know this is pittiful compared to a lot of your problems and I thank you all for being with me through these 9 months. God Bless you all and I pray that God be with us as we all go through the trials and tribulations that we are coping with.

[AnnieP]

Coffeebean, I'll be thinking of you.
Take care
xxx

[Lauz]

Coffeebean - I wish you all the best for the birth of your little one. You will be a fantastic mother! You must keep us updated with her arrival....

PS. Your issues and this brith is by no means any less important than anyone else's lives on here.

[Helen_uk]

Honey

I'm not going to be around much the next couple of weeks, but you know I'll be thinking of you. I hope everything goes well with the birth of your daughter and she brings you joy. I know you'll be an excellent mum, so don't listen to anyone.

It's normal not to feel excited as it's the unknown for you, and you've been under enormous pressure. With your H's words about leaving once she's born ringing in your ears you're bound to feel anxious.

But you're wrong on one count CB.. your daughter WILL still be a part of you, always and nothing can change that . Take each day as it comes and take it from me, the pain of childbirth is far outweighed by the joy of seeing that new little face so please don't be scared because the more scared you get the more it hurts.

When you have a minute, come back and post and let us know how it goes.

Take good care of yourself and lots of hugs

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((( CB ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Love

Helen xx

[Stevet]

Hi Coffeebean,

Don't be daft, as Lauz said, your problems are no less important than ours!

All the best of luck with the birth, take care and good luck.

Steve

[Coffeebean]

thank you so much. Hey helen how is life treating you? I hope things are going ok for you. Aren't you moving soon?

I'll let you all know when the little one is born. If I could ask for prayers during the next days and that i'm don't have to be induced as I really don't want to be. And please continue to pray that neither my mum or husband get upset during this time as i'm sure i've mentioned before mum wants to be part of it and h doens't want her to be.

I found out yesterday that she had no food in the house - i'm not exaggerating here I mean no food just half a block of cheese and some crackers to see her through to the 22nd august because she spent all her money on a new sofa and she wanted it in for the baby (i'm sure the baby would love a new sofa :) ) and does not get paid till then. I only found out because I decided to see her as a surprise - i haven't seen her in 3 weeks after the whole fight between her and h and I wouldn't have know if I hadn't shown up. When asked how she was eating she told me that if someone offered her a buscuit she would accept it and that was lunch etc - i am not kidding she thought this was fine. Neadless to say I fully stocked her house with food before went home. I can't have her hurt when she tries so hard.

Please pray she is protected from all emotional hurt and my h is kind to her.

Thank you all for thinking of me whilst you are all going through your only striff.

God Bless and Keep Safe.

[aqua]

Coffeebean

Families can be such a pain in the neck at times, can' they?
I wish they would settle their differences as it's not helping you or the baby.

Your problems are not pitiful! I think you've had a lot more to contend with right now than a lot of us. Having a baby, especially your first, can be an emotional and rollercoaster time even if you're not having marital problems. It can be a draining time and you sound as though you're doing your best to try and cope with a very difficult situation.

If you can, concentrate on the present. Hard though it is, try to put what might happen with your husband to the back of your mind. The only two things that are important right now are you and the baby.

Get as much rest as you can now.

aqua

[Helen_uk]

Hya CB

Yep, I'm doing fine thanks, by my reckoning you have about a week to go now ?

I hope you're taking it easy and not letting it all get you down, you need all your strength now hun.

Let us know when your little one arrives, you'll certainly be in my thoughts.

Hugs

Helen xx

[Coffeebean]

good to hear from you helen just read all that's been happening over last couple of days - sorry things got so heated for you. Could use some prayers today not feeling at all well. Baby has turned and still haven't resolved the problem between mum and h. Anyone got any suggestions how to kill a wicked headach without taking painkillers - any thoughts are all??

Baby due in 6 days time but she may be late. I hope not!!

Everyone keep safe x