Left my husband today...

[fluffer]

Well I finally did it. I woke up this morning totally freaked out and walked out with not much more than the clothes I stand up in. I can replace things, self respect and sanity that's another thing. To be honest I'm not that upset. More upset about the past 5 years of my life wasted on a looser.

We had a massive row 2 weeks ago and it all came out that he knew about the escorting all along. So basically he was happy to live of me like that. It's taken me 2 weeks to let it sink in and work out what I was going to do. I didn't plan to run out without anything, but sometimes you just snap and you can't stand another moment in the situation.

I'm staying with a friend, who's lent me some money(he's taken my bank card) and my sister's sorted me a job out in Jersey for the summer so I can get some money together.
I'm just going to see how it goes. I just know I don't want to be with him any more.
He's sent me texts calling me every name under the sun, but I know however stupid I am, I'm not like him, and I wouldn't put some one else in a **** situation and then blame them for bailing me out.
I hope everything's going to work out ok, I'v got a feeling it will. I'll keep you posted..xxxxxxx

[callow]

Well done.

The fact he is still abusing you shows his disregard for you. Don't let him know where you are. He sounds like he might be revengeful.

Try to get some counselling for the emotional damage he had done to you.

Sally

[Bishek]

To tell You the truth, I find quite lots of man to be suffering from schizofrenia

Read this for an example;

THE BALLAD OF THE FISTFUL MAN

Dear Christ! The grassy filed fields
Suddenly reminded me the story
When the man in his age and his oaths
Told me the below story.

When he was young, he searched for new
The things the young desire
The freedom, the worth, the gold and the hay
So much for the young to desire!

When he grew up and when he has
Begot a little wisdom
He found that it’s not enough
To catchy fulfil his freedom.

He then have looked for things on offer
The Pretty girls, the fancy goods, the drink
He also he looked at the other things,
The bad and the offal.

And then he found and it wasn’t soon
Digesting, the things he has searched for
That it wasn’t the golden coin
And the thing a worth to purse for

Although his soul was still afraid
That will lose a much of freedom
The man decided that was just a time
To do what the man is made for.

(To settle down, to be discrete, to be a faithful body)

This story will be not as long
Not as half as the famous Gaol story
And will finish with the sentence below
To full reader’s understanding glory:

Not all the sins and all manly faults
Has to be prejudged or prettify
To understand that a every man
Is a very strange unpredictable assemble.
(as opposite to woman, ha,ha).

4I.21.04.07.PR

[fluffer]

Thanks everyone,
Yes I know I shouldn't have put myself in the whole escorting situation, but I did have a job in the first place, and then I lost it and he spent my money at such a rate I was left with that or the streets. I got out of this situation myself, and I'v had a good job in an office for the past year, I'm not lazy I work realy hard.
At the time he had a a massive problem with smokeing weed and I was stuck with paying for it. I'm just a stupid woman for falling in love so hard, and thinking I could fix other peoples problems.
I feel so much better for getting out. Really like my life is going somewere again, and a fog has lifted from my eyes. I'm off to start a new life and do my own thing, I know I can be strong for myself, and if I can live through somthing like this then probably I can do anything. Thanks Sally for your support, really means alot. Don't worry he dosen't know were I am, think he could be a bit vengefull, but he's just going to have to let that eat him away. I don't care I leave this with my heart clean, and that's the most important thing. Big love Kirsty..xx