RENEE
11th August 2001, 04:57 AM
WHAT I FEAR MOST IS.....WHY CANT I TRUST MY SPOUSE? WHY DOES HE FEEL HE HAS TO LIE?
HE HAS LIED TO ME ON SEVERAL OCCASSIONS...WHICH I THOUGHT WAS NO REASON TO LIE AND HE ALWAYS SEEMS LIKE HE IS HIDING SOMETHING FROM ME ALL THE TIME. I HAVE THIS DEEP FEELING ABOUT HIM THAT HE CANT BE TRUSTED. WHEN I DO CATCH HIM IN A LIE, HE GETS REAL DEFENSIVE AND TRIES TO MAKE ME BELEIVE HIS LIES, WHEN MY OWN EYES EVEN SEE THE TRUTH....AND HE IS CONVINCING......THAT IS WHAT SO SCARY. HE CAN LOOK ME STRAIGHT IN THE EYE AND LIE AND THEN IF I DONT BELIEVE HIS LIE HE STARTS CALLING ME CRAZY AND SAYING SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME AND HE JUST GETS REAL IRRITABLE....HE GETS SO IRRITATED WITH ME THAT HE'LL BRUSH ME OFF AND NOT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME FOR MOST OF THE DAY OR EVEN WEEK.... LIKE IM THE BAD PERSON HERE...NOT TRUSTING HIM! BUT IM NOT PLAYING HIS LITTLE GAME! HE ACTUALLY WANTS ME TO APOLOGIZE TO HIM SOMETIMES AFTER I ACTAULLY CATCH HIM IN A LIE.....HE DENIES AND DENIES HE LIED....... OH! AND HE IS ALWAYS TURNING IT ON ME AND AND THEN ITS MY FAULT I DONT TRUST HIM! I NOTICED HE LIKES TO PLAY MIND GAMES....I THINK ITS STUPID OF HIM BECAUSE HE DOESNT REALLY REALIZE IM AWARE OF IT.....AND IF I TELL HIM SO...HE DOESNT ACKNOWLEDGE IT.
WELL RECENTLY I CAUGHT HIM LYING TO ME ABOUT SOMETHING HE DIDNT HAVE TO LIE ABOUT..I LET HIM MAKE UP HIS WHOLE STORY .....(THAT IS WHAT I CANT BELIEVE SOMEONE JUST MAKING UP STUFF TO SAY JUST TO COVER THERE BUTTS) . WELL THIS ONE CAME RIGHT DOWN ON HIS HEAD AND HE HAD NO WHERE ELSE TO TURN BUT TO TELL THE TRUTH.....AND THEN DIDNT REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME FOR 2 WEEKS EVEN THOUGH HE TALKED TO ME HE WAS DISTANT....WE WENT TO CHURCH THAT SUNDAY AFTER THAT INCIDENT AND HE APOLOGIZED AND PROMISED HE WOULD CHANGE AND HE DIDNT KNOW WHY HE DOES STUFF LIKE THAT....BUT I HAVE HEARD THIS PROMISE BEFORE AND HE NEVER KEEPS IT.....HE LOOKS ME STRAIGHT IN THE EYES AND PROMISES AND ASKS ME FORGIVENESS AND STILL LIED TO ME.....WE EVEN HAD LONG TALKS ABOUT ME STARTING TO TRUST HIM AGAIN......OH HE SAID, "COME OUT ON A LIMB AND JUST TRUST ME PLEASE" AND THEN LIES AGAIN.....AGAIN.....AGAIN AND HE EXPECTS ME TO TRUST HIM...I DONT BELIEVE A WORD HE SAYS NOW. AND I DONT LIKE THAT KIND OF MARRIAGE.....WHAT IS A MARRIAGE WITHOUT TRUST? HE MADE A APPT TO SEE A CONSELLOR BUT CANCELLED. HE SAID HE WILL TRY ON HIS OWN WITH THE GRACE OF GOD ( I HEARD THAT BEFORE TOO!.....IM NOT TO SURE HE'S TO SERIOUS ABOUT TRYING TO STOP LYING...... I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO......IM NOT HAPPY WITH HIS DISHONESTY......HOW CAN WE BUILT A MARRIAGE LIKE THIS.....WHAT'S THE POINT OF EVEN BEING MARRIED?
P.S THE REAL SCARY THING ABOUT HIM BEING DISHONEST. HE IS REAL SINCERE WHEN HE IS LYING......I DONT LIKE THAT AT ALL! HE PLAYS ON MY FRIENDSHIP!
IM READY TO CALL IT QUITS! I HAVE 4 CHILDREN I NEED TO RAISE AND I DONT WANT TO GO THROUGH ANOTHER DIVORCE EITHER.......BUT IF IT I HAVE TO THEN I WILL DO WHATS BEST FOR ME AND MY CHILDREN. I'M TRIED OF THE MENTAL WAR HE PUTS ME THROUGH TO COVER HIS BUTT IN A LIE.......THAT IS SELFISH OF HIM.
HE HAS LIED TO ME ON SEVERAL OCCASSIONS...WHICH I THOUGHT WAS NO REASON TO LIE AND HE ALWAYS SEEMS LIKE HE IS HIDING SOMETHING FROM ME ALL THE TIME. I HAVE THIS DEEP FEELING ABOUT HIM THAT HE CANT BE TRUSTED. WHEN I DO CATCH HIM IN A LIE, HE GETS REAL DEFENSIVE AND TRIES TO MAKE ME BELEIVE HIS LIES, WHEN MY OWN EYES EVEN SEE THE TRUTH....AND HE IS CONVINCING......THAT IS WHAT SO SCARY. HE CAN LOOK ME STRAIGHT IN THE EYE AND LIE AND THEN IF I DONT BELIEVE HIS LIE HE STARTS CALLING ME CRAZY AND SAYING SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME AND HE JUST GETS REAL IRRITABLE....HE GETS SO IRRITATED WITH ME THAT HE'LL BRUSH ME OFF AND NOT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME FOR MOST OF THE DAY OR EVEN WEEK.... LIKE IM THE BAD PERSON HERE...NOT TRUSTING HIM! BUT IM NOT PLAYING HIS LITTLE GAME! HE ACTUALLY WANTS ME TO APOLOGIZE TO HIM SOMETIMES AFTER I ACTAULLY CATCH HIM IN A LIE.....HE DENIES AND DENIES HE LIED....... OH! AND HE IS ALWAYS TURNING IT ON ME AND AND THEN ITS MY FAULT I DONT TRUST HIM! I NOTICED HE LIKES TO PLAY MIND GAMES....I THINK ITS STUPID OF HIM BECAUSE HE DOESNT REALLY REALIZE IM AWARE OF IT.....AND IF I TELL HIM SO...HE DOESNT ACKNOWLEDGE IT.
WELL RECENTLY I CAUGHT HIM LYING TO ME ABOUT SOMETHING HE DIDNT HAVE TO LIE ABOUT..I LET HIM MAKE UP HIS WHOLE STORY .....(THAT IS WHAT I CANT BELIEVE SOMEONE JUST MAKING UP STUFF TO SAY JUST TO COVER THERE BUTTS) . WELL THIS ONE CAME RIGHT DOWN ON HIS HEAD AND HE HAD NO WHERE ELSE TO TURN BUT TO TELL THE TRUTH.....AND THEN DIDNT REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME FOR 2 WEEKS EVEN THOUGH HE TALKED TO ME HE WAS DISTANT....WE WENT TO CHURCH THAT SUNDAY AFTER THAT INCIDENT AND HE APOLOGIZED AND PROMISED HE WOULD CHANGE AND HE DIDNT KNOW WHY HE DOES STUFF LIKE THAT....BUT I HAVE HEARD THIS PROMISE BEFORE AND HE NEVER KEEPS IT.....HE LOOKS ME STRAIGHT IN THE EYES AND PROMISES AND ASKS ME FORGIVENESS AND STILL LIED TO ME.....WE EVEN HAD LONG TALKS ABOUT ME STARTING TO TRUST HIM AGAIN......OH HE SAID, "COME OUT ON A LIMB AND JUST TRUST ME PLEASE" AND THEN LIES AGAIN.....AGAIN.....AGAIN AND HE EXPECTS ME TO TRUST HIM...I DONT BELIEVE A WORD HE SAYS NOW. AND I DONT LIKE THAT KIND OF MARRIAGE.....WHAT IS A MARRIAGE WITHOUT TRUST? HE MADE A APPT TO SEE A CONSELLOR BUT CANCELLED. HE SAID HE WILL TRY ON HIS OWN WITH THE GRACE OF GOD ( I HEARD THAT BEFORE TOO!.....IM NOT TO SURE HE'S TO SERIOUS ABOUT TRYING TO STOP LYING...... I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO......IM NOT HAPPY WITH HIS DISHONESTY......HOW CAN WE BUILT A MARRIAGE LIKE THIS.....WHAT'S THE POINT OF EVEN BEING MARRIED?
P.S THE REAL SCARY THING ABOUT HIM BEING DISHONEST. HE IS REAL SINCERE WHEN HE IS LYING......I DONT LIKE THAT AT ALL! HE PLAYS ON MY FRIENDSHIP!
IM READY TO CALL IT QUITS! I HAVE 4 CHILDREN I NEED TO RAISE AND I DONT WANT TO GO THROUGH ANOTHER DIVORCE EITHER.......BUT IF IT I HAVE TO THEN I WILL DO WHATS BEST FOR ME AND MY CHILDREN. I'M TRIED OF THE MENTAL WAR HE PUTS ME THROUGH TO COVER HIS BUTT IN A LIE.......THAT IS SELFISH OF HIM.