davey_ramsey
18th January 2006, 08:47 PM
I have been married 20 years, read on please, our honeymoon was in Amsterdam! We did not consummate the marriage there, that was off the cards. I was 28, she 24 and after ups and downs married after a a 5 year relationship where I was not allowed to "get close". I was told by my wife that sex is not important in a true marriage - I believed her!
This has always been an issue, you know the classic joke one child! Ok its reality here!
I am now 49 and wonder what life is all about, professional, well off big house etc. but lonely. In September 05 I met an amazing woman. 15 years my junior. She is warm, and just lovely. The trouble is she has a partner, and loves him, they want a family.
Ok this is where it gets tough. We started to see each other, she was fascinated by my looks & personality (what moi!). We do Dinner, Walks, talks, and I have fallen so head over heals in love with her, I cant sleep, work, think its just awful.
She has said she loves me, that I'm gorgeous, but in reality this wont work, she cuts herself off saying she wants to concentrate on her life. After all I have it all (do I?) and she has been wanting a family for ages with her man. Then I turned up!
OK its a mess, I think of her as my future life partner, she is quirky in her walk, manner, ideas but so warm. I am taking all sorts of concoctions to stay sane.
So everyone, welcome to the real world of an affair, this has been 4 months and turned into hell in my head.
For those who say "Cake & eat it" I have no cake, and I am not eating it either! You have no idea what you are saying!
I dream of being in bed with her, since I know in the past she had had other men, but refuses me because its the ultimate deceit, I understand, but it really hurts.
D.
This has always been an issue, you know the classic joke one child! Ok its reality here!
I am now 49 and wonder what life is all about, professional, well off big house etc. but lonely. In September 05 I met an amazing woman. 15 years my junior. She is warm, and just lovely. The trouble is she has a partner, and loves him, they want a family.
Ok this is where it gets tough. We started to see each other, she was fascinated by my looks & personality (what moi!). We do Dinner, Walks, talks, and I have fallen so head over heals in love with her, I cant sleep, work, think its just awful.
She has said she loves me, that I'm gorgeous, but in reality this wont work, she cuts herself off saying she wants to concentrate on her life. After all I have it all (do I?) and she has been wanting a family for ages with her man. Then I turned up!
OK its a mess, I think of her as my future life partner, she is quirky in her walk, manner, ideas but so warm. I am taking all sorts of concoctions to stay sane.
So everyone, welcome to the real world of an affair, this has been 4 months and turned into hell in my head.
For those who say "Cake & eat it" I have no cake, and I am not eating it either! You have no idea what you are saying!
I dream of being in bed with her, since I know in the past she had had other men, but refuses me because its the ultimate deceit, I understand, but it really hurts.
D.