wistful
5th May 2005, 11:20 PM
Posting this thread has not been a decision taken lightly. I have been married for 17 years and coming to terms that my marriage is all but over seems to be an admission of defeat.
I am a born again christian, who while backing sliding in a foreign land, married a norminal muslim. Multicultural and multifaith marriage seems a moletov cocktail to juggle and my christian walk has taken a roller coaster ride through the years.
I know there are always two sides to a story but I have been burdened with the responsibility of keeping my marriage above water and paddling madly just to stay afloat and now im so tired I cant see any reason to keep going.
I tried one of those online relationship test thingys this evening, and even from a secular perspective my marriage has run its course. which made me hunt around on the internet for a christian site that would give me a glimmer of hope.
We have got to the point where we dont share anything together anymore. It wasnt sudden, just over the years we have drifted into seperate lives living under the same roof. The only common pleasure is our four children.
I fear the day they grow up and leave.
Ive had emotional abuse since early in our marriage. We dont relate together, the situations are always 'my problem' he doesnt deal with issues whatsover, and unfortunately this has gone on so long that now I feel too tired to keep fighting for us singlehandly when he doesnt meet half way to fix things.
It scares me that ive got to the point where I dont feel anything for him any longer. Ive prayed about it, spoke to the minister, but its like ive finally run out of fuel .I dont believe in divorce, was adamant it would never happen, but now I feel like im on the brink of it.
I am a born again christian, who while backing sliding in a foreign land, married a norminal muslim. Multicultural and multifaith marriage seems a moletov cocktail to juggle and my christian walk has taken a roller coaster ride through the years.
I know there are always two sides to a story but I have been burdened with the responsibility of keeping my marriage above water and paddling madly just to stay afloat and now im so tired I cant see any reason to keep going.
I tried one of those online relationship test thingys this evening, and even from a secular perspective my marriage has run its course. which made me hunt around on the internet for a christian site that would give me a glimmer of hope.
We have got to the point where we dont share anything together anymore. It wasnt sudden, just over the years we have drifted into seperate lives living under the same roof. The only common pleasure is our four children.
I fear the day they grow up and leave.
Ive had emotional abuse since early in our marriage. We dont relate together, the situations are always 'my problem' he doesnt deal with issues whatsover, and unfortunately this has gone on so long that now I feel too tired to keep fighting for us singlehandly when he doesnt meet half way to fix things.
It scares me that ive got to the point where I dont feel anything for him any longer. Ive prayed about it, spoke to the minister, but its like ive finally run out of fuel .I dont believe in divorce, was adamant it would never happen, but now I feel like im on the brink of it.