k from wales
5th September 2004, 03:48 AM
hiya all, im a 34 yr old male with 2 young boys who live mainly with me now since the split with my ex. we were together 10 yrs and she left me on june 4 this year, the breakup was a long time comming as we were arquing all the time.
The thing is, coz we have kids we see eachother a lot and spend nice days out as a family, its like weve never split on these days out and im still in love with her, so everytime i think im getting there and getting over the worst we'll have a good day together and later while im by myself, i miss her so much and start going through the feelings i had at the start.
i know the easy answer is to not spend time with her, but im alone with no friends to go out with and at least when im with her im having fun and smiling.
ive met lots of people, girls and guys, online from lone parents sites, none close enough to me to go out with! but they are all in the same boat as me, the amount of people ive added to messenger, removed from messenger lately is mad!
my ex has told me she slept with someone last week so im feeling worse than ever right now, and so alone :(
i have every weekend off from the kids as the ex has them, but like i said, i have no one to go out with, no conffidence at the mo to meet new friends and even though i'll smile all day long when im out and about, im hurting real bad inside and wouldnt want anyone i met to know how depressed i feel at times.
since i was made redundant 2 years ago, ive been the home maker and havent worked, my kids are in school so a part time job would probably help me move on, but where do, or how rather, do i build my confidence back up? i want my life back, i dont want to be sat here all alone every weekend, and i really miss huggs! not gonna get them on a pc.
any one been here?
k from wales
The thing is, coz we have kids we see eachother a lot and spend nice days out as a family, its like weve never split on these days out and im still in love with her, so everytime i think im getting there and getting over the worst we'll have a good day together and later while im by myself, i miss her so much and start going through the feelings i had at the start.
i know the easy answer is to not spend time with her, but im alone with no friends to go out with and at least when im with her im having fun and smiling.
ive met lots of people, girls and guys, online from lone parents sites, none close enough to me to go out with! but they are all in the same boat as me, the amount of people ive added to messenger, removed from messenger lately is mad!
my ex has told me she slept with someone last week so im feeling worse than ever right now, and so alone :(
i have every weekend off from the kids as the ex has them, but like i said, i have no one to go out with, no conffidence at the mo to meet new friends and even though i'll smile all day long when im out and about, im hurting real bad inside and wouldnt want anyone i met to know how depressed i feel at times.
since i was made redundant 2 years ago, ive been the home maker and havent worked, my kids are in school so a part time job would probably help me move on, but where do, or how rather, do i build my confidence back up? i want my life back, i dont want to be sat here all alone every weekend, and i really miss huggs! not gonna get them on a pc.
any one been here?
k from wales